The Double Life of Elle

The Secret Confessions of an Extra Lusty Broad in a Stick Figure World.

Takin’ Care of Business February 23, 2009

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I hope everyone had a great weekend.  I snacked way too much because I had ready-made prepackaged snacks in the house (granola bars, string cheese, yogurt).  I will NOT be purchasing convenient processed snacks anymore!  This is one case where my laziness can actually help me stick to my diet:  when I feel like snacking, I decide whether or not I want to go to the trouble of “preparing” something or whether I just want to grab an apple or banana.  The fruit always wins…or whatever else is lying around that I can just stuff in my mouth.  So if I just keep good “convenience” food around, I’m golden.  

I haven’t bought my treadmill yet, but I did order a brand new red iPod nano, which should be arriving sometime this week.  I love making kick ass workout playlists.  Let’s face it, one of the best things about exercise is the soundtrack.  Maybe I’ll share some of my playlists. 

As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, Fatbridesmaid is heralding a Lenten Challenge.  Participants will be sacrificing laziness for the 40 days of Lent, exercising for 30 minutes everyday.  The first day of Lent is this Wednesday, Feb 25, if anyone wants to join the fun.  

Last week, I confessed that I am a smoker and I laid out my plans for quitting.  So far, so good.  I haven’t had any problem sticking to 10 cigs or less over the past few days.  Mostly, I smoke them while I’m driving or at work…this is going to be a problem when I make it to 3 cigs or less/day.  But I’ll worry about that later.  To my surprise, my Mother In Law has decided to quit too.  Her final butt was last Tuesday.  I wish I had known that before I had to work with her this weekend, but her bitchiness wasn’t so bad.  I hope she can stick with it, because quite frankly, it will make it easier for me to stick with it.            

One more bit of business to take care of:

I got a comment from an asshat who sad my last post was bullshit because there are search engines like Google that I could use to find new blogs.  I promptly deleted it (it was, after all, in my spam que).  And if my reading comprehension magically deserted me and I misunderstood the context of the comment, I apologize for the deletion.  Somehow, I don’t think that happened, so if that person happens to be reading this post——

Yeah, I know all about Google, moron.  But I wanted to give my readers a chance to plug their blogs and, oh…I don’t know, perhaps foster a sense of community amongst those of us on the same path.

So anyway, I will be adding the blogs of the commentors of my last post to my “fatroll” (but not yours, Jen…’cause you’re already there;) ).  So if anyone else wants to be added, just leave a link. 

Alright, I think all the business is out of the way.

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Blog Yourself Thin February 20, 2009

Every time I have tried to lose weight in the past, I do great for a couple of weeks, then fuck up and fizzle out.  Then a year later, when I get fed up with the fat again, I always think, “If only I would have stuck with it last year, I wouldn’t be in this position now.”  I joined WeightWatchers.com last year in January probably feeling this way.  I fucked up/fizzled out (the last time I tracked my weight was March 17), but my original stats are still on my weight tracking page.  My initial weight last year was 305 lbs, my highest weight ever.  According to my WW Weight Tracker I have lost 18.4 lbs, which sounds great, but on January 15 I made a fresh start so I’m sticking with my weight loss numbers from that time.  I could have cleared my old weights on WWs but I wanted to preserve “the struggle.” 

It took me a whole year to find the right mindset for this challenge.  Now I’m not looking back with regret.  There was no way I could have lost a significant amount of weight last year, short of contracting a horrible illness.  Emotionally, I was not ready to deal with some of the issues that kept me fat.  I wasn’t ready to change my lifestyle, I just wanted my life to magically change.

Next year, I will not be saying, “If only——.”  And you, Lusties, are my witnesses. :) 

So I usually post 3 times a week (M, W, and F), but I’m thinking of adding a 4th post to the week, for food talk.  Recently, I have decided to try a brand new (healthy) recipe every week, and maybe the 4th post can be concerned with that.  I think blogging about cooking will help keep me motivated to actually do it.

And speaking of which, this whole blogging thing has been a truly essential part of my weight loss.  One of those cliched weight loss tips you hear all the time is to “keep a diary” to “work through your emotions.”  Well, that totally helps, but what really lights a fire under your ass is publishing your private diary for the entire world to see.  The single most important thing I have done to get this weight loss thing started, has been blogging.  I have a routine: every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I curl up with my laptop on the couch, organize my emotions,  and type away.  This blog has given me the structure that I crave, and it’s been a great way for me to truly see my own progress. 

So if you don’t have a blog and you want to lose weight, I suggest that you at least try it out.  And for those of you that do have weight loss blogs, I invite you to promote your blog in the comments.  Just write a little synopsis and leave a link.  Weight loss/Health related blogs only please.  I’m always looking for new blogs to read and new people to connect with and I need to add to my blogroll. 

Alright, Lusties.  I will see you Monday! 

Oh, yeah…I lost 2.2 lbs this week!  Woohoo!

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Fat Mentality February 4, 2009

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For the past 3 weeks, my weight loss journey has been consuming me (in a good way).  I have found a determination that I didn’t know I was capable of.  This is the longest I’ve “had my heart in” any kind of diet.  Constantly, I think about all the things that I’ll be able to do when I lose this weight: like getting out of bed in the morning without a painful struggle, going to a restaurant and not having to squeeze myself into a booth, and not having to pay a fortune for cute bras and jeans.   

But I can’t imagine myself thinner.  I told that to my BFF (best friend forever, for those of you who didn’t write those things on your binders  or add it as a “closing” in notes to your BFF in middle school).  

Her exact words were, “Not with an attitude like that!” 

She missed my point completely.  She used to be a Skinny Bitch (I mean, like size 4 skinny) and gained a lot of weight (100 lbs) over the past 5 years.  She has lived most of her life a Skinny Bitch, while I have spent my entire life being Extra Lusty.  Trying to imagine myself thin, is like trying to imagine a different nose on my face.   Plus, I have this fat girl mentality I’ve had for as long as I can remember:  before going out anywhere, I think about all the possible ways my fat is going to cause me problems or embarrassment….like breaking a folding chair at a cookout (happened!), slipping and falling (I can’t completely chalk that up to being fat, because I am such a klutz, but everyone who witnesses it just sees a fat girl rolling around on the ground), and worst of all, navigating my way through a crowded bar.  BFF still has the skinny bitch mentality and these kinds of concerns don’t even cross her mind. 

Does anyone else feel this way?  Or DID anyone feel this way before they lost the weight?  Does the “fat girl mentality” ever really go away?? 

Well, The Biggest Loser changes Extra Lusties into Skinny Bitches!  I didn’t get to watch the whole show last night, but I did get to see the weigh-in of the At-Homers.  I was yelling at the T.V. when the green team weighed in.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m rooting for Green, but Laura needs to cut the whining and crying.  And like FatBridesmaid mentioned on her LiveBlog, I’m glad Jillian called out Aubrey on the Yellow team for using that tired “I’ve gained muscle” line when she only lost 2 lbs in 30 days (FatBridesmaid hosts a LiveBlog discussion during the airing of The Biggest Loser, and also posts a play-play synopsis of each episode).   Later in the show, Aubrey said that she worked out 4-5 hrs a day when she was home and that her diet was the culprit.  I find this hard to believe.  I was sad that Carla had to go home because of Joelle.  Carla worked so hard and she wanted it so bad…unfortunately her partner totally screwed her over.  It looks like it cost them their friendship too.   My BFF talks about applying for BL all the time, and she has said that she would end up at her partner’s throat if they weren’t working hard enough because she is so competitive (think Tara of the Green team).  Since I enjoy being her friend,  I think I’ll pass. ;)   

I will be weighing in for the third time tomorrow, and I won’t lie to you…I am feeling the pressure.  This blogging thing, gives a person A LOT of accountability.  See you all Friday and have a very happy Hump-Day!

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All You Need is Love February 2, 2009

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Today, I thought I would give a little link love. 

Need a little motivation?  Check out Gettin’ Shrunk.  This hardcore dieting, punk rockin’, tatoo-sportin’ mom has a great success story about her weight loss.  She also has excellent pictures that chronicle her weight from 281 lbs to 137 lbs! 

Want another reason to limit your intake of processed foods?  How about mercury contaminated High Fructose Corn Syrup?  Yeah, I think I’ll pass.  Crunchy Domestic Goddess has a great post about this here with lots of great links.  Need more convincing?  A mom with a PhD in chemical engineering says no to HFCS in A Life Less Sweet and an ex-pat nutritionist lives her life Fake Food Free

Want to blog yourself thin? Check out DietGirl’s post, about documenting “lard-busting” online.  There’s some link love to enjoy there too!

All right, Lusties, hope you enjoy the clickclickclicking.  I’m going to leave you with a youtube video of the first part of  ABC’s 2004 documentary “How to Get Fat Without Really Trying.”  If you get a chance, watch the whole thing, because it has some great information about America’s food industry.