I have added a brand new “Goals and Milestones” page. For the weight related goals (i.e. 10% lost, 50 lbs lost, etc), I have decided to reward myself with various goodies. Those goodies aren’t necessarily dangling carrots though. The idea that I will get new workout clothes after I hit my 10% isn’t going to be the driving motivation that keeps me on the treadmill. BUT getting those new clothes will be a great way to celebrate the victory. The rewards are more like a way to acknowledge important transitions. I also listed some non-scale personal goals that I have, and that list is likely to grow. If you have a goal/reward system in place, tell me about them in the comments. Or better yet, blog about them and leave a link!
In other news, I actually got to watch an entire episode of The Biggest Loser last night. Tara is so hardcore…I kind of have a “fitness crush” on her. She had a bit of a meltdown on last night’s episode, but I probably would too if I thought I had to work twice as hard to make up for my inconsistent partner. The mud wrestling was hilarious!
As much as I admire Tara’s grit, I want Kristen of the purple team to win. I wasn’t sad to see the Pink team fall below the yellow line, but I was really surprised that they asked everyone to vote off Shanon. She seemed to regret her decision in the elimination room, but her mother seemed happy as a clam about staying. I don’t know…Shanon looks good now (she’s lost 85 lbs), but I think she would have benefited more from being on the ranch than her mother.
Alright, Lusties. I have another secret confession to make, and this is a big one…big and nasty:
I am a smoker. I know, I know. Please spare me the “you’regoingtodieoflungcancer” lecture. I KNOW. I want to quit. Really, I do. But sometimes when I think about it, my neurosis flares up again…
“What will I do if I’m waiting outside of the theater for someone? Just…stand there?”
“What will I do on my breaks at work?”
“How on earth will I drive for long periods of time without smoking?”
“How the hell will I be able to socialize with my smoker friends?”
I know all of these concerns are mild compared to a lifetime of respiratory-related health problems. My stop smoking date is March 18th. So I have a month. I am hoping that all the exercise will help squelch my craving for butts. When I’ve exercised in the past, it hurt to smoke after a workout and it just felt so…dirty? Until March 18, I will be working on cutting back the number of cigs I smoke a day.
Week 1- 10 cigs or less/day
Week 2- 8 cigs or less/day
Week 3- 5 cigs or less/day
Week 4- 3 cigs or less/day
March 18–no cigs ever again/day
I will probably be utilizing some “stop-smoking” aids, like nicotine gum and patches. My BFF is using the prescription Chantix…it is making her super flatulent and REALLY bitchy. But it seems to be working for her. I’m too terrified of the other side effects…like depression, so I’ll do it the old fashioned way. If anyone out there is a smoker and would like to quit, let’s help each other. If there are any ex-smokers out there, please help me.
Phew! That was hard. But I put it out there and that means there’s a whole new level of accountability. I can totally do this…right?