Every time I have tried to lose weight in the past, I do great for a couple of weeks, then fuck up and fizzle out. Then a year later, when I get fed up with the fat again, I always think, “If only I would have stuck with it last year, I wouldn’t be in this position now.” I joined WeightWatchers.com last year in January probably feeling this way. I fucked up/fizzled out (the last time I tracked my weight was March 17), but my original stats are still on my weight tracking page. My initial weight last year was 305 lbs, my highest weight ever. According to my WW Weight Tracker I have lost 18.4 lbs, which sounds great, but on January 15 I made a fresh start so I’m sticking with my weight loss numbers from that time. I could have cleared my old weights on WWs but I wanted to preserve “the struggle.”
It took me a whole year to find the right mindset for this challenge. Now I’m not looking back with regret. There was no way I could have lost a significant amount of weight last year, short of contracting a horrible illness. Emotionally, I was not ready to deal with some of the issues that kept me fat. I wasn’t ready to change my lifestyle, I just wanted my life to magically change.
Next year, I will not be saying, “If only——.” And you, Lusties, are my witnesses. :)
So I usually post 3 times a week (M, W, and F), but I’m thinking of adding a 4th post to the week, for food talk. Recently, I have decided to try a brand new (healthy) recipe every week, and maybe the 4th post can be concerned with that. I think blogging about cooking will help keep me motivated to actually do it.
And speaking of which, this whole blogging thing has been a truly essential part of my weight loss. One of those cliched weight loss tips you hear all the time is to “keep a diary” to “work through your emotions.” Well, that totally helps, but what really lights a fire under your ass is publishing your private diary for the entire world to see. The single most important thing I have done to get this weight loss thing started, has been blogging. I have a routine: every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I curl up with my laptop on the couch, organize my emotions, and type away. This blog has given me the structure that I crave, and it’s been a great way for me to truly see my own progress.
So if you don’t have a blog and you want to lose weight, I suggest that you at least try it out. And for those of you that do have weight loss blogs, I invite you to promote your blog in the comments. Just write a little synopsis and leave a link. Weight loss/Health related blogs only please. I’m always looking for new blogs to read and new people to connect with and I need to add to my blogroll.
Alright, Lusties. I will see you Monday!
Oh, yeah…I lost 2.2 lbs this week! Woohoo!