The Double Life of Elle

The Secret Confessions of an Extra Lusty Broad in a Stick Figure World.

Blah… March 6, 2009

Filed under: weigh-in — thedoublelifeofelle @ 10:28 pm
Tags: , , , ,

I’m almost over my sickness.  I did go to work today, and it was horrible.  I also managed to weigh myself today.  I lost 1 lb this week. 

This tiny little blog post has tuckered me out.  You will see me again Monday, hopefully healthier and back on the Lent Wagon.

Add to FacebookAdd to DiggAdd to Del.icio.usAdd to StumbleuponAdd to RedditAdd to BlinklistAdd to Ma.gnoliaAdd to TechnoratiAdd to FurlAdd to Newsvine

 

All of My Planning… March 4, 2009

Filed under: The Plan — thedoublelifeofelle @ 9:52 pm
Tags: , , ,

…and I forgot about two things:

1. Girl Scout Cookie season.

2. Getting sick.

I ate a whole box of thin mints this past weekend.  Obviously, not good for my diet.  Plus I am horribly sick (some cold/flu bug).  I go between feeling nauseated just thinking about food and eating everything I can stuff into my mouth.  Again, not great for my diet.  Also this illness is not great for the Lenten Challenge.  But FANTASTIC for my efforts to quit smoking.  Who wants to smoke filthy cigarettes when you can barely breathe to begin with?  Anyway, I think I will be starting fresh with the Lenten Challenge when this bug goes away.  I know it’s cheating, but I am not interested in having a coughing fit while I try and lift my ass up and down an aerobic step.

I have eaten my last girl scout cookie and I hope to implement a fail safe “when I get sick” food plan. 

I think I’ll crawl back into bed now.

Add to FacebookAdd to DiggAdd to Del.icio.usAdd to StumbleuponAdd to RedditAdd to BlinklistAdd to Ma.gnoliaAdd to TechnoratiAdd to FurlAdd to Newsvine

 

Weigh-In and Updates March 2, 2009

So I didn’t get a chance to post last Friday.  SH and I both had the day off and we were out most of the day.  I did weigh in on Thursday though, and I only gained 0.2 lbs.  Am I disappointed that I gained?  Slightly, but I was expecting it.  I’m thrilled that I only gained a very small amount though. 

The Lenten challenge is going OK.  I have been shit about waking up early to work out.  If I manage to squeeze in a workout before bedtime, I’m lucky.  I have been doing yoga and pilates, nothing super strenuous.  I don’t want to burn out on this challenge!  I’ll be upping the ante in a few days by dusting off my Firm DVDs.  I loooooove the Firm.  It absolutely kicks my ass.  I also want to get Jillian’s 30 day shred.  I suppose I’m slightly masochistic when it comes to exercise.   

And the smoking…well, this week I’m supposed to smoke 8 cigs or less per day.  This has been pretty easy to stick to…except for yesterday when I had to work 10 hours.   I smoked about 12 cigs yesterday.  This morning I woke up coughing and with a sore throat.  I’m not sure if I’m getting sick or if I just puffed too much yesterday. 

My diet has been shit.  I have been so busy that I’ve neglected going to the market and my pantry needs a good restocking.  I had pizza at work yesterday and Chinese takeout on Friday. This tends to happen when I don’t have food at home to prepare. 

My goals for the week:

-Plan out my meals for the week and shop accordingly.

-Start using my Firm DVDs.

-Purchase 30 Day Shred

-Purchase some nicotine gum to help cut the smoking to 5 cigs this week.

Happy Monday, everyone!

Add to FacebookAdd to DiggAdd to Del.icio.usAdd to StumbleuponAdd to RedditAdd to BlinklistAdd to Ma.gnoliaAdd to TechnoratiAdd to FurlAdd to Newsvine

 

Relax this! February 25, 2009

Filed under: exercise — thedoublelifeofelle @ 11:28 pm
Tags: , , , , , ,

Today, being Ash Wednesday, marks the very first day of Lent.  And if you’ve been following along, you know that for the next 40 days, I will be sacrificing laziness and making the time to exercise everyday.  This morning I woke up fairly early and did yoga. 

And you know what I realized today, Lusties?  I flippin’ hate yoga.  Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed the flexibility I felt afterwards, but I absolutely cannot focus on my “breathing” and I cannot tap into my “feminine energy.”  When I workout, I like to sweat, swear, grimace and groan to loud thumping music.  I need to drown out the chaotic “chatter” that fills my thoughts.  No, I don’t suffer from multiple personalities, but my mind is always very busy.  I’m a worrier, a planner, an analyzer, a dweller.  And when I hear New Age music and a quiet, lilting voice telling me to “concentrate on the sound of my own breath,” I can’t just give in to the stillness.  While doing the poses this morning, I was thinking about writing this post, what I was going to eat for lunch, what bills I need to pay when I get paid tomorrow…the list goes on and on.  

Instead of quieting my mind, I let it run higgledy-piggledy.  And although I didn’t feel “relaxed” at the end of my yoga workout, I did feel like I had a jump-start on the day ahead of me.  The stretching was great too, but next time, I think I will forgoe the lilting voice and listen to my own music.  It’s a good thing my fancy-schmancy new red iPod was delivered via Fed-Ex today! 

Weigh-in is tomorrow and I have a feeling this is my week to gain.  I haven’t been planning my meals the way I should this week, plus I had that bout with convenience food.  BUT my jeans are so loose in the ass/thighs that I think I may need to go down a size.  I wasn’t expecting to notice any difference this soon but I am, of course, thrilled.

Anway, it’s way too late for me to be blogging.  I will see you all at a decent hour on Friday.

Add to FacebookAdd to DiggAdd to Del.icio.usAdd to StumbleuponAdd to RedditAdd to BlinklistAdd to Ma.gnoliaAdd to TechnoratiAdd to FurlAdd to Newsvine

 

Takin’ Care of Business February 23, 2009

Filed under: exercise — thedoublelifeofelle @ 1:01 pm
Tags: , , , , , , , , ,

I hope everyone had a great weekend.  I snacked way too much because I had ready-made prepackaged snacks in the house (granola bars, string cheese, yogurt).  I will NOT be purchasing convenient processed snacks anymore!  This is one case where my laziness can actually help me stick to my diet:  when I feel like snacking, I decide whether or not I want to go to the trouble of “preparing” something or whether I just want to grab an apple or banana.  The fruit always wins…or whatever else is lying around that I can just stuff in my mouth.  So if I just keep good “convenience” food around, I’m golden.  

I haven’t bought my treadmill yet, but I did order a brand new red iPod nano, which should be arriving sometime this week.  I love making kick ass workout playlists.  Let’s face it, one of the best things about exercise is the soundtrack.  Maybe I’ll share some of my playlists. 

As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, Fatbridesmaid is heralding a Lenten Challenge.  Participants will be sacrificing laziness for the 40 days of Lent, exercising for 30 minutes everyday.  The first day of Lent is this Wednesday, Feb 25, if anyone wants to join the fun.  

Last week, I confessed that I am a smoker and I laid out my plans for quitting.  So far, so good.  I haven’t had any problem sticking to 10 cigs or less over the past few days.  Mostly, I smoke them while I’m driving or at work…this is going to be a problem when I make it to 3 cigs or less/day.  But I’ll worry about that later.  To my surprise, my Mother In Law has decided to quit too.  Her final butt was last Tuesday.  I wish I had known that before I had to work with her this weekend, but her bitchiness wasn’t so bad.  I hope she can stick with it, because quite frankly, it will make it easier for me to stick with it.            

One more bit of business to take care of:

I got a comment from an asshat who sad my last post was bullshit because there are search engines like Google that I could use to find new blogs.  I promptly deleted it (it was, after all, in my spam que).  And if my reading comprehension magically deserted me and I misunderstood the context of the comment, I apologize for the deletion.  Somehow, I don’t think that happened, so if that person happens to be reading this post——

Yeah, I know all about Google, moron.  But I wanted to give my readers a chance to plug their blogs and, oh…I don’t know, perhaps foster a sense of community amongst those of us on the same path.

So anyway, I will be adding the blogs of the commentors of my last post to my “fatroll” (but not yours, Jen…’cause you’re already there;) ).  So if anyone else wants to be added, just leave a link. 

Alright, I think all the business is out of the way.

Add to FacebookAdd to DiggAdd to Del.icio.usAdd to StumbleuponAdd to RedditAdd to BlinklistAdd to Ma.gnoliaAdd to TechnoratiAdd to FurlAdd to Newsvine

 

Blog Yourself Thin February 20, 2009

Every time I have tried to lose weight in the past, I do great for a couple of weeks, then fuck up and fizzle out.  Then a year later, when I get fed up with the fat again, I always think, “If only I would have stuck with it last year, I wouldn’t be in this position now.”  I joined WeightWatchers.com last year in January probably feeling this way.  I fucked up/fizzled out (the last time I tracked my weight was March 17), but my original stats are still on my weight tracking page.  My initial weight last year was 305 lbs, my highest weight ever.  According to my WW Weight Tracker I have lost 18.4 lbs, which sounds great, but on January 15 I made a fresh start so I’m sticking with my weight loss numbers from that time.  I could have cleared my old weights on WWs but I wanted to preserve “the struggle.” 

It took me a whole year to find the right mindset for this challenge.  Now I’m not looking back with regret.  There was no way I could have lost a significant amount of weight last year, short of contracting a horrible illness.  Emotionally, I was not ready to deal with some of the issues that kept me fat.  I wasn’t ready to change my lifestyle, I just wanted my life to magically change.

Next year, I will not be saying, “If only——.”  And you, Lusties, are my witnesses. :) 

So I usually post 3 times a week (M, W, and F), but I’m thinking of adding a 4th post to the week, for food talk.  Recently, I have decided to try a brand new (healthy) recipe every week, and maybe the 4th post can be concerned with that.  I think blogging about cooking will help keep me motivated to actually do it.

And speaking of which, this whole blogging thing has been a truly essential part of my weight loss.  One of those cliched weight loss tips you hear all the time is to “keep a diary” to “work through your emotions.”  Well, that totally helps, but what really lights a fire under your ass is publishing your private diary for the entire world to see.  The single most important thing I have done to get this weight loss thing started, has been blogging.  I have a routine: every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I curl up with my laptop on the couch, organize my emotions,  and type away.  This blog has given me the structure that I crave, and it’s been a great way for me to truly see my own progress. 

So if you don’t have a blog and you want to lose weight, I suggest that you at least try it out.  And for those of you that do have weight loss blogs, I invite you to promote your blog in the comments.  Just write a little synopsis and leave a link.  Weight loss/Health related blogs only please.  I’m always looking for new blogs to read and new people to connect with and I need to add to my blogroll. 

Alright, Lusties.  I will see you Monday! 

Oh, yeah…I lost 2.2 lbs this week!  Woohoo!

Add to FacebookAdd to DiggAdd to Del.icio.usAdd to StumbleuponAdd to RedditAdd to BlinklistAdd to Ma.gnoliaAdd to TechnoratiAdd to FurlAdd to Newsvine

 

Secret Confession February 18, 2009

I have added a brand new “Goals and Milestones” page.  For the weight related goals (i.e. 10% lost, 50 lbs lost, etc), I have decided to reward myself with various goodies.  Those goodies aren’t necessarily dangling carrots though.  The idea that I will get new workout clothes after I hit my 10% isn’t going to be the driving motivation that keeps me on the treadmill.  BUT getting those new clothes will be a great way to celebrate the victory.  The rewards are more like a way to acknowledge important transitions.  I also listed some non-scale personal goals that I have, and that list is likely to grow.  If you have a goal/reward system in place, tell me about them in the comments.  Or better yet, blog about them and leave a link!   

In other news, I actually got to watch an entire episode of The Biggest Loser last night.  Tara is so hardcore…I kind of have a “fitness crush” on her.  She had a bit of a meltdown on last night’s episode, but I probably would too if I thought I had to work twice as hard to make up for my inconsistent partner.  The mud wrestling was hilarious!

As much as I admire Tara’s grit, I want Kristen of the purple team to win.  I wasn’t sad to see the Pink team fall below the yellow line, but I was really surprised that they asked everyone to vote off Shanon.  She seemed to regret her decision in the elimination room, but her mother seemed happy as a clam about staying.  I don’t know…Shanon looks good now (she’s lost 85 lbs), but I think she would have benefited more from being on the ranch than her mother.

Alright, Lusties.  I have another secret confession to make, and this is a big one…big and nasty:

I am a smoker.  I know, I know.  Please spare me the “you’regoingtodieoflungcancer” lecture.  I KNOW.  I want to quit.  Really, I do.  But sometimes when I think about it, my neurosis flares up again…

“What will I do if I’m waiting outside of the theater for someone?  Just…stand there?”

“What will I do on my breaks at work?”

“How on earth will I drive for long periods of time without smoking?”

“How the hell will I be able to socialize with my smoker friends?”

I know all of these concerns are mild compared to a lifetime of respiratory-related health problems.  My stop smoking date is March 18th.  So I have a month.  I am hoping that all the exercise will help squelch my craving for butts.  When I’ve exercised in the past, it hurt to smoke after a workout and it just felt so…dirty?  Until March 18, I will be working on cutting back the number of cigs I smoke a day.  

Week 1- 10 cigs or less/day

Week 2- 8 cigs or less/day

Week 3- 5 cigs or less/day

Week 4- 3 cigs or less/day

March 18–no cigs ever again/day

I will probably be utilizing some “stop-smoking” aids, like nicotine gum and patches.  My BFF is using the prescription Chantix…it is making her super flatulent and REALLY bitchy.  But it seems to be working for her.  I’m too terrified of the other side effects…like depression, so I’ll do it the old fashioned way.  If anyone out there is a smoker and would like to quit, let’s help each other.  If there are any ex-smokers out there, please help me. 

Phew!  That was hard.  But I put it out there and that means there’s a whole new level of accountability.  I can totally do this…right?

Add to FacebookAdd to DiggAdd to Del.icio.usAdd to StumbleuponAdd to RedditAdd to BlinklistAdd to Ma.gnoliaAdd to TechnoratiAdd to FurlAdd to Newsvine